Thank you all for your support on my last post about the mega meltdown. I love you all so much and could not have asked for a better support system. I am so blessed to have every single one of you in my life and I thank God all the time for you.
Two of my cousins and I threw one of my other cousins a baby shower today and it was lovely. We had an "Alice in Wonderland" themed tea party and it was alot of fun. The one time an infertile really really obsesses about her infertility is sitting through a baby shower, but today was totally different. I felt nothing but sheer joy for my cousins and their soon to be new sweet baby boy.
Crazy at it is, through most of the shower, I didn't think about infertility and just enjoyed myself. I honestly forgot about the whole thing and for once, in a long long time, felt...well...normal. And it felt great! The one time in the whole shower I remembered I was infertile was while my cousin was opening gifts and I went to hand her the scissors. I reached out my arm, looked down, and saw the marks and bruises caused by my last GTT, and you know what I did? I laughed. Out loud! I think I was just so shocked that I hadn't thought about it the whole day and it felt amazing! It was kind of a sweet moment, feeling extreme happiness at the exact moment when I would normally feel extreme sadness.
So tonight once again, I sing praises to our Lord...
Prayers of thanks for my beautiful family.
Prayers of thanks for the new life that is about to enter the world.
Prayers of thanks for the peace that God has granted me today.
While I wait to cradle a baby of my own in my arms, I know that I rest safely in the arms of our Lord..........and there's no where else I'd rather be.
My 45th Year and Tranformation~
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