Primary Dr Appt.

Went in to see my primary Dr (Dr. C) this morning to try and get that authorization from St Jude's insurance. So they will put it in today and he said it may only take 7 business days till it gets approved and send back to my OBGYN and then I can make my actual "infertility" appointment. What a freakin' hassle! I just hope Dr. C's nurses do it right, because I had to go through this once with them before and they didn't know what they were doing, you probably remember because I had ALOT to blog about when it happened a while back! And I wanted to make sure, and when I was at the desk after my apointment, I was just asking the nurse about it and she was like "well it's just a push-through and we just send it back to Dr. L (OBGYN)" and I said, "no this actually has to get approved and needs authorization by your insurance, that's why Dr. L made me come back here and that's what Dr. C said needs to happen." Nurse: "ooooooh" I swear if something gets screwed up I'm going to lose it again!

Just keep swimming

I have an appointment with my primary physician tomorrow morning at 8:00 am. Hopefully he can just send in the referral request and things will move quickly. I'm emotionally drained today and I don't know how much more of this I can take. I'm so over crying and crying over the same things all the time. Things are getting old.

So Sad

The insurance lady from Saint Jude Medical Center called today as she was supposed to, but our conversation went completely different than what I expected. She said she had to cancel my Appt for 2 weeks from now, because now I have to go back to my primary Dr, have him write up this huge application along with results from Mike's SA, and send it back over to Saint Jude Medical Center so we can be approved for infertility treatment. She said it was going to take a while and that when it's approved we can make another appointment. So now we can't take those blood tests my Dr wanted us to take untill after we've been approved. I don't know if I should just say screw it and take the provera, wasting a cycle, or just hold off on that and wait just in case. I spent a good part of the morning just crying my eyes out because it's just not fair. It's not fair that we have to go through all of this, and it's not fair that it has to be so hard. I called my primary Dr and got an appointment for 8am tomorrow morning, so hopefully things happen quickly.

*steps back from happy place and back into hole of depression*

I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.

Good appointment

Our appointment was good today. I was in the waiting room by myself waiting for my name to be called and all of a sudden some guy sat right next to me and I looked up and it was Mike! <3>

So we go in and we talked about how the metformin still hasn't worked so... She said we could either have an HSG done first (where they shoot dye up your cervix to see if either of my tubes are blocked) and then start Clomid OR Do a few rounds of Clomid and if nothing happened then go back in and do our HSG and then our IUI. So we decided we'd like to just do the Clomid first. She went over Mike's SA results and said everything looked amazing.

So this is our plan...

*She gave me my Provera perscription.

*Her insurance girl has to talk to my insurance just to make sure everything is covered.

*She wanted an "infertility referral" from my family Dr (but he did this a while ago so she just needs to verify that he did that)

*She game Mike and I a few blood tests we have to do to make sure we don't have certain diseases (but I can't do mine until that lady calls me)

AFTER all this is done, (we have 2 weeks to do it all) then I go back in and get my perscription for the Clomid. SO since it has to be timed perfectly, I'm not going to start my Provera for a week, just to buy us enough time so I that way I have the Clomid when it's time to start taking it. It all feels chaotic, but I'm so so happy.

15 months

As of today we've been TTC for 15 months...ho hum

Just FYI

To all my TTC/Adopting blogging buddies: I changed my commenting name from HelloKitty to Amy @LittlePinkDollhouse, so if you see comments from that person, it's not some random creeper, it's me!

SA Results

We got Mike's SA results back and they are normal! Yay!

Appearance: Normal

Sperm Concentration: 55.5 Million

Motility: 81%

Morphology: 95%

Liquefaction: 45 minutes

I told him he did a great job and he responded with "Thanks I tried really hard." lol...I love that man! <3

I Am SO Antsy!!

I just want next Monday to get here!!! Gah!

Just thinking...

I was just sitting here thinking, if we do get another "cycle" induced and if we do get put on Clomid for this next cycle and IF the Clomid makes me ovulate...I could very well be pregnant in October. WOW. I'm not getting my hopes up, but I haven't ovulated this whole time that we've been TTC and I've never been in that 2ww (the 2 weeks in between when you ovulate and when you either start your period, or are able to take a pregnancy test and hopefully have it come up positive.) I've NEVER had to wait that, and I can't wait, to wait lol if that makes sense! To at least have a spark of hope...it just puts butterflies in my tummy and makes my heart skip a beat! <3

I'm blonde

My Appt isn't for this monday but next monday! That means we'll for sure have Mike's SA results back in time! Hooray!!! hehe

Almost 15 months

DH did his SA today, and I couldn't go with him because I had to work, but he said it wasn't too embarrassing. The lab said for most tests they will have the results forwarded back to the Dr within 24 hours, so hopefully DH's Dr can fax him his results before monday so I can take the results in on Monday at my next appointment and *hopefully* start our first round of Clomid!

Please Please Please let that happen! I haven't ovulated in over a year! It's almost been 15 months of us TTC and I'm over not ovulating...let's hope we get this show on the road.

DH's 1st SA

We have Mike's first SA scheduled for this Wed at noon. Wish us/him luck!

Does anyone know how long it normally takes to get results back?

DH's SA

Mike got his referral for his first ever SA (Semen Analysis). I'm going to swing by the Dr on my way to work to pick up his referral paperwork and he'll call to schedule it sometime this week. We're just tired of waiting, and we're taking the bull by the horns so to speak and getting our tests done on our own so we'll be somewhat more prepared for my next Dr appointment at the end of this month. I really don't think there will be any problem with his results, just something we have to do to move on to the next step.

Overcoming the Guilt.

"So how do you get rid of guilt? You admit there are some problems-but NOT problems with either of you-and you work to fix them. Acknowledge the feeling, accept it for what it is, and show it the door. We admit right here that this may be easier said than done. But guilt makes you second guess yourself. It makes you feel like a failure, and while you may have a few body parts that aren't quite with the program, you as a person are not a failure. Wallowing in guilt is a big time waster. Finally, when you are trying to get pregnant, it is important to rid yourself of all toxicity. Guilt is toxic. Guilt has got to go!"

-A Few Good Eggs

I wish I had a Few Good Eggs

I went into the book store tonight to get some cute books for my God-kids (twins) who just turned 8 today. While I was there, I was browsing the women's health section and I saw the book A Few Good Eggs: Two Chicks Dish on Overcoming the Insanity of Infertility by Julie Vargo & Maureen Regan so I bought it. Both of the authors have struggled with infertility, and it seems like a good book from what I've flipped thru so far, but I'll really start reading it tonight and give a little review when I'm done.

On the cover of the book there's this cute little baby popping out of an egg shell, and the guy that was ringing me up, held the book up and looked at it and said the baby looked just like his nephew. "Crazy" I said. He went on..."He is the cutest kid ever"..."Man I love that kid"..."Man babies are awesome"..."OMG he just learned how to potty train TODAY!" *as he throws his fist in the air for victory*................me: "yay, congrats to him...." Normally stuff like that would bother me and just make me feel sorry for myself and think "maaaaaaaan, I want a baby to potty train and make me want to punch the air." *pouty face* But I was actually fine this time. Either the numbness is just getting stronger, or I'm just realizing how to suck it up and not cry over every little thing. Either way I was proud of myself.

Insurance Questions

26 more days till my appointment! It's kinda strange that after this appointment I will be "marked" as infertile on my charts and insurace. Speaking of insurace, my Dr. told me to look up and see exactly what they will be covering, and I'm confused by what this means.

Office Visits: Copay: 50% Per Visit, Copayment maximum applies
Laboratory/Radiology: Copay: 50% Per Visit, Copayment maximum applies
Injectables/Treatment: Copay: 50% Per Visit, Copayment maximum applies
Surgical Treatment: Copay: 50% Per Visit, Copayment maximum applies
Hospital Services: Copay: 50% Per Visit, Copayment maximum applies

Everything else like IUIs and beyond are not covered. So what exactly does that mean? That they cover 50% of the above listed? What does it mean when they say "copayment maximum applies?



Edit: I did more searching and it says that the Co-paymnet maximum is $1000 for individual and $2000 for family, whatever that means, I don't know the difference between the 2? But it says that's the most you would have to pay for applicable covered covered services.