*sigh*
Tonight I had to do something all of us infertiles dread....
shopping for a baby shower DUN DUN DUUUUUN!!!
I know all my IF girls sympathize with me on this one...
Stab us in the ass/hip/stomach with triggers/injectables...shoot dye/freshly 'washed' semen up our cervixes...make us take so many pills our bodies and minds are so corrupt with hormones we can't even begin to see straight......but throw us in a store full of baby stuff surrounded by preggo bellies and happy families registering for their baby showers and we run crying like 5 year old girls!
Ah yes, that was me tonight in one of our local Targets. I have a baby shower to go to on Saturday and I am making myself go to this one. In the past almost 2 years of TTC I have only been to one baby shower because it was a cousin of mine that I absolutely ADORE. (yes Linds you! xoxo) Every other baby shower I have been invited to I somehow came up with a fancy scheme to get out of, but it's time for me to face my fears.
So DH and I are in Target trying to quickly pick out gifts for this shower and it was like every corner I turned there was a huge preggo belly staring me down! They were all I could see! I swear all the baby bellies of the world were there tonight stalking me and taunting me..one jumped out and even tried to bite me...okay maybe not but I ran from them like they were trying to. I got stuck in a huge gaggle of girls with a registry list ooohing and awwwing over cribs and bedding...I got trapped behind a couple picking out "My Daddy Loves Me" shirts...Moms telling their kids to pick out outfits for their new baby brother or sister...I needed OUT!
We grabbed the first couple of boy things we could find and I hightailed it for the check out stand trying to gasp for air...of course not before accidentally literally ramming a display of baby clothes with my cart, forcing it to lunge back a good 5 feet almost knocking the damn thing over!!!
*sigh*
Praying I have better luck at the shower... lol
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Aww I am sure that was really hard to do. You are really brave for going to a baby shower. Lucky for me I haven't had to go to one since we started trying. Most of my friends are on baby number 2 or MORE and so they haven't had any showers. Hoping the shower goes better for you!
Of all the trying external experiences (M/C and the likes are another kettle of fish), attendance at a shower had my vote as the single biggest show of courage for the fertility challenged woman and I don't think I need go into the many reasons why!
RESPECT!
=( You did a brave thing!!! I'm proud of you! I have faith that one day soon, you'll be on the other side of this scenario =)
HAha! Had to laugh at this post a bit because it's all SOOOOO true! =) Good job on making it out of there! :hugs:
Wooo... that's tough! I'm proud of you. It will be so fun to go baby shower shopping for you! I can't wait.
Totally know how you feel! Good for you for going to the shower. I probably go to about half of the ones I'm invited to these days.
These days it seems that not only do I run into pregnant people everywhere I go, they are even in my dreams! Argh!
i love you too... i agree with kelly- someday soon it is going to be the most magical thing in the world to throw you a big huge baby shower...
and i hear you... you are being brave... xoxo
I know that has to be really hard. My husband and i have been trying for 2 years to get pregnant. and I recently found out the reason for our unsuccessful trying was due to PCOS. I have only been put on metformin so far, but the infertility bit is coming soon. Just THIS month I have been invited to 5 baby showers of girls from my town pregnant. (ALL of which I cleverly avoided as well) But something I could not run from was the fact that about 2 months ago we found out my little sister (age 15) is pregnant! So on top of me and my DH not getting that BFP we have to live through the torment of going through with my little sisters pregnancy. Seems it keeps getting better. :-(
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