Wednesday, March 4, 2009

12 hours from now...

...I'll be at my Dr's appt!!! I'm so excited to find out what's going on. I don't know why but I have so many emotions right now. I'm scared and nervous and excited and happy and hopefull all at the same time. Kinda feel jittery inside. I hope we can maybe run some tests or she can just go right ahead and try and induce me (praying for that)! Ever since I was younger, like back when I first started I have ALWAYS been so irregular, and all doctors ever did was try and put me on BC and then take me off to regulate! It was always the same..."oh you're young and healthy, we'll just throw you on ortho lo and take you off in a year and you'll be fine." Well about a million times of trying that it never worked. I NEVER want to be on BC ever again. I feel like it's screwed me up a little bit. And I'm gonna tell her that tomorrow, because if that's what she wants to do to try and "solve" this, I'd rather not thankyouverymuch.

Mike and I had a long heart to heart last night sitting out on our new patio furniture talking about adoption, which we are both for. I know it's a little bit early to be thinking about that, but I'm just glad that we are both on the same wave length. I've been thinking about it alot lately, and I think even if we are able to have our own childern, we'd like to adopt anyways. We talked about where we would adopt from, and we'd probably have an international adoption, either from Russia or Poland or some slavik country. We've been kinda reading up on it, and although it's alot of work, we think it would be worth it to give a child a better life. Anyhow, just wanted to jot that down.

Send me prayers for tomorrow so I won't be so nervous!


I'm not afraid of storms, for I'm learning to sail my ship.
-- Louisa May Alcott

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