Thursday, April 29, 2010

The one where Amy went shopping for a baby shower.

*sigh*

Tonight I had to do something all of us infertiles dread....

shopping for a baby shower DUN DUN DUUUUUN!!!

I know all my IF girls sympathize with me on this one...

Stab us in the ass/hip/stomach with triggers/injectables...shoot dye/freshly 'washed' semen up our cervixes...make us take so many pills our bodies and minds are so corrupt with hormones we can't even begin to see straight......but throw us in a store full of baby stuff surrounded by preggo bellies and happy families registering for their baby showers and we run crying like 5 year old girls!

Ah yes, that was me tonight in one of our local Targets. I have a baby shower to go to on Saturday and I am making myself go to this one. In the past almost 2 years of TTC I have only been to one baby shower because it was a cousin of mine that I absolutely ADORE. (yes Linds you! xoxo) Every other baby shower I have been invited to I somehow came up with a fancy scheme to get out of, but it's time for me to face my fears.

So DH and I are in Target trying to quickly pick out gifts for this shower and it was like every corner I turned there was a huge preggo belly staring me down! They were all I could see! I swear all the baby bellies of the world were there tonight stalking me and taunting me..one jumped out and even tried to bite me...okay maybe not but I ran from them like they were trying to. I got stuck in a huge gaggle of girls with a registry list ooohing and awwwing over cribs and bedding...I got trapped behind a couple picking out "My Daddy Loves Me" shirts...Moms telling their kids to pick out outfits for their new baby brother or sister...I needed OUT!

We grabbed the first couple of boy things we could find and I hightailed it for the check out stand trying to gasp for air...of course not before accidentally literally ramming a display of baby clothes with my cart, forcing it to lunge back a good 5 feet almost knocking the damn thing over!!!

*sigh*

Praying I have better luck at the shower... lol

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Not really much to update on. I'm still waiting to her if my referral has gone through for Dr Wizard. I still haven't gotten a positive OPK, so I really dont think anything is going to happen...I think I'm like CD33...maybe 32...maybe 34...as you can tell I'm not keeping track. I'm over this cycle. I'm still temping just to see and my temps are really really steady which is kinda boring lol..so yeah just wanted to update on....well...err....nothing I guess lol

If I don't hear from my Dr by Thursday I will call on Friday which will be over 2 weeks since they sent my referral out.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Too Cool to Ovulate

Well it's CD 29 and my OPK this afternoon was barely even there. I mean you would just think that at least once in the past almost 2 years my body would ovulate...nope, I guess my ovaries are too cool for that. My temps have gone back to normal for a while now, and every day I wake hoping to see a temp spike, but alas, none comes. Here's my chart... http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/24ff9a

I think the high early temps were because I had the flu the week prior and had temps of 103, so I feel like the higher ones I had this cycle were like "flu-temp aftershocks" lol

Hopefully my referral goes through soon and I can get in to see Dr Wizard, or "The Wizard of Oz" as my cousin called him today lol (I love that).

My parents are amazing and after reading my worried post about injectables a few days ago, have said that they want to help pay for our treatments. It's just so much money, which makes me feel so bad, but my Mom said "Just think of it as we're investing in our family." <3 I am so completely grateful that they want to help us. I really am very lucky to have my parents. Besides the financial support, they have always been there for whatever emotional support we have needed, and I could never thank them enough for all they have done for us.

My parents tried for somewhere around 5-6 years to get pregnant, going through cycles of medication and years of the constant pain and suffering we all know infertility causes...till they finally (miraculously & naturally) got pregnant with me. Two more babies (my brother and sister) followed shortly after I came. So they know the pain and the hurt that we (DH, myself & all of you out there in the infertile community blogland) have to suffer through every single day of our lives. Their story gives me hope...and I pray it does the same for some of you.

I know somewhere deep in my heart, that one day it will happen for all of us.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

You are Formally Invited...

To help us spread the hope during:

National Infertility Awareness Week
April 24th-May1st

The honor of your presence is humbly requested by the infertile Twitter community...
On Monday April 26th, please join us, on Twitter, in trying to get #infertility to be a trending topic by adding #infertility to the end of all of your tweets.
The more you tweet the topic #infertility, the better chance we have of spreading the hope.
Together, we can help bring more awareness to what was once a very taboo subject.
Spread the word = Spread the love
Please repost

Infertility Etiquette

I found this posted on heartsandhandss.com and thought it was awesome...just reposting it for my fellow IF ladies..

Infertility Etiquette

By Vita Alligood

Chances are, you know someone who is struggling with infertility. More than five million people of childbearing age in the United States experience infertility. Yet, as a society, we are woefully uninformed about how to best provide emotional support for our loved ones during this painful time.

Infertility is, indeed, a very painful struggle. The pain is similar to the grief over losing a loved one, but it is unique because it is a recurring grief. When a loved one dies, he isn’t coming back. There is no hope that he will come back from the dead. You must work through the stages of grief, accept that you will never see this person again, and move on with your life.

The grief of infertility is not so cut and dry. Infertile people grieve the loss of the baby that they may never know. They grieve the loss of that baby who would have had mommy’s nose and daddy’s eyes. But, each month, there is the hope that maybe that baby will be conceived after all. No matter how hard they try to prepare themselves for bad news, they still hope that this month will be different. Then, the bad news comes again, and the grief washes over the infertile couple anew. This process happens month after month, year after year. It is like having a deep cut that keeps getting opened right when it starts to heal.

As the couple moves into infertility treatments, the pain increases while the bank account depletes. Most infertility treatments involve using hormones, which alter the user’s moods. (That statement is like calling a lion a cat-my husband would tell you that the side effect is insanity!) The tests are invasive and embarrassing to both parties, and you feel like the doctor has taken over your bedroom. And for all of this discomfort, you pay a lot of money. Infertility treatments are expensive, and most insurance companies do not cover the costs. So, in addition to the pain of not conceiving a baby each month, the couple pays out anywhere from $300 to five figures (10's of thousands of dollars), depending upon the treatment used.

A couple will eventually resolve the infertility problem in one of three ways:
They will eventually conceive a baby.
They will stop the infertility treatments and choose to live without children.
They will find an alternative way to parent, such as by adopting a child or becoming a foster parent.

Reaching a resolution can take years, so your infertile loved ones need your emotional support during this journey. Most people don’t know what to say, so they wind up saying the wrong thing, which only makes the journey so much harder for their loved ones. Knowing what not to say is half of the battle to providing support.

Don’t Tell Them to Relax

Everyone knows someone who had trouble conceiving but then finally became pregnant once she “relaxed.” Couples who are able to conceive after a few months of “relaxing” are not infertile. By definition, a couple is not diagnosed as “infertile” until they have tried unsuccessfully to become pregnant for a full year. In fact, most infertility specialists will not treat a couple for infertility until they have tried to become pregnant for a year. This year weeds out the people who aren’t infertile but just need to “relax.” Those that remain are truly infertile.

Comments such as “just relax” or “try going on a cruise” create even more stress for the infertile couple, particularly the woman. The woman feels like she is doing something wrong when, in fact, there is a good chance that there is a physical problem preventing her from becoming pregnant.

These comments can also reach the point of absurdity. As a couple, my husband and I underwent two surgeries, numerous inseminations, hormone treatments, and four years of poking and prodding by doctors. Yet, people still continued to say things like, “If you just relaxed on a cruise . . .” Infertility is a diagnosable medical problem that must be treated by a doctor, and even with treatment, many couples will NEVER successfully conceive a child. Relaxation itself does not cure medical infertility.

Don’t Minimize the Problem

Failure to conceive a baby is a very painful journey. Infertile couples are surrounded by families with children. These couples watch their friends give birth to two or three children, and they watch those children grow while the couple goes home to the silence of an empty house. These couples see all of the joy that a child brings into someone’s life, and they feel the emptiness of not being able to experience the same joy.

Comments like, “Just enjoy being able to sleep late . . . .travel . . etc.,” do not offer comfort. Instead, these comments make infertile people feel like you are minimizing their pain. You wouldn’t tell somebody whose parent just died to be thankful that he no longer has to buy Father’s Day or Mother’s Day cards. Losing that one obligation doesn’t even begin to compensate for the incredible loss of losing a parent. In the same vein, being able to sleep late or travel does not provide comfort to somebody who desperately wants a child.

Don’t Say There Are Worse Things That Could Happen

Along the same lines, don’t tell your friend that there are worse things that she could be going through. Who is the final authority on what is the “worst” thing that could happen to someone? Is it going through a divorce? Watching a loved one die? Getting raped? Losing a job?
Different people react to different life experiences in different ways. To someone who has trained his whole life for the Olympics, the “worst” thing might be experiencing an injury the week before the event. To someone who has walked away from her career to become a stay-at-home wife for 40 years, watching her husband leave her for a younger woman might be the “worst” thing. And, to a woman whose sole goal in life has been to love and nurture a child, infertility may indeed be the “worst” thing that could happen.

People wouldn’t dream of telling someone whose parent just died, “It could be worse: both of your parents could be dead.” Such a comment would be considered cruel rather than comforting. In the same vein, don’t tell your friend that she could be going through worse things than infertility.

Don’t Say They Aren’t Meant to Be Parents

One of the cruelest things anyone ever said to me is, “Maybe God doesn’t intend for you to be a mother.” How incredibly insensitive to imply that I would be such a bad mother that God felt the need to divinely sterilize me. If God were in the business of divinely sterilizing women, don’t you think he would prevent the pregnancies that end in abortions? Or wouldn’t he sterilize the women who wind up neglecting and abusing their children? Even if you aren’t religious, the “maybe it’s not meant to be” comments are not comforting. Infertility is a medical condition, not a punishment from God or Mother Nature.

Don’t Ask Why They Aren’t Trying IVF

In vitro fertilization (IVF) is a method in which the woman harvests multiple eggs, which are then combined with the man’s sperm in a petri dish. This is the method that can produce multiple births. People frequently ask, “Why don’t you just try IVF?” in the same casual tone they would use to ask, “Why don’t you try shopping at another store?”

There are many reasons why a couple would choose not to pursue this option. Here are a few of them.

IVF is Expensive with Low Odds
One cycle of IVF is very expensive. With all of the hype in the news, many people assume that IVF is a sure thing when, in fact, the odds of success for each cycle are low. Most couples cannot afford to try for one month, much less for multiple times. Considering that it also costs a significant amount of money to adopt a baby, many couples opt for the “sure thing” rather then risking their money on much lower odds.

IVF is Physically Taxing
Undergoing IVF treatments is very rigorous. The woman must inject shots into her thigh daily to cause her ovaries to superovulate. The drugs used are very taxing on the woman, and they can cause her to be become extremely emotional.

IVF Raises Ethical Issues
Ironically, couples who undergo IVF to become parents may have to selectively abort one or more fetuses if multiple eggs are fertilized. Many couples cannot bring themselves to abort a baby when they have worked so hard to become parents. If the couple chooses not to selectively abort, they run the risk of multiple births.

Don’t Offer Unsolicited Opinions If They Are Trying IVF
On the flip side of the coin, don’t offer unsolicited advice to your friends who do choose to try IVF. For many couples, IVF is the only way they will ever give birth to a baby. This is a huge decision for them to make, for all of the reasons I outlined above.

If the couple has resolved any ethical issues, don’t muddy the waters. IVF is a gray area in many ethical circles, and many of our moral leaders don’t yet know how to answer the ethical questions that have arisen from this new technology. If the couple has resolved these issues already, you only make it harder by raising the ethical questions again. Respect their decision, and offer your support. If you can’t offer your support due to ethical differences of opinion, then say nothing.

A couple who chooses the IVF route has a hard, expensive road ahead, and they need your support more than ever. The hormones are no cakewalk, and the financial cost is enormous. Your friend would not be going this route if there were an easier way, and the fact that she is willing to endure so much is further proof of how much she truly wants to parent a child. The hormones will make her more emotional, so offer her your support and keep your questions to yourself.

Don’t Play Doctor

Once your infertile friends are under a doctor’s care, the doctor will run them through numerous tests to determine why they aren’t able to conceive. There a numerous reasons that a couple may not be able to conceive. Here are a few of them:
Blocked fallopian tubes
Cysts
PCOS
Endometriosis
Low hormone levels
Low “normal form” sperm count
Low progesterone level
Low sperm count
Low sperm motility
Thin uterine walls

Infertility is a complicated problem to diagnose, and reading an article or book on infertility will not make you an “expert” on the subject. Let your friends work with their doctor to diagnose and treat the problem. Your friends probably already know more about the causes and solutions of infertility than you will ever know.

You may feel like you are being helpful by reading up on infertility, and there is nothing wrong with learning more about the subject. The problem comes when you try to “play doctor” with your friends. They already have a doctor with years of experience in diagnosing and treating the problem. They need to work with and trust their doctor to treat the problem. You only complicate the issue when you throw out other ideas that you have read about. The doctor knows more about the causes and solutions; let your friends work with their doctor to solve the problem.

Don’t Be Crude

It is appalling that I even have to include this paragraph, but some of you need to hear this-Don’t make crude jokes about your friend’s vulnerable position. Crude comments like “I’ll donate the sperm” or “Make sure the doctor uses your sperm for the insemination” are not funny, and they only irritate your friends.

Don’t Complain About Your Pregnancy

This message is for pregnant women-Just being around you is painful for your infertile friends. Seeing your belly grow is a constant reminder of what your infertile friend cannot have. Unless an infertile women plans to spend her life in a cave, she has to find a way to interact with pregnant women. However, there are things you can do as her friend to make it easier.

The number one rule is DON’T COMPLAIN ABOUT YOUR PREGNANCY. I understand from my friends that, when you are pregnant, your hormones are going crazy and you experience a lot of discomfort, such as queasiness, stretch marks, and fatigue. You have every right to vent about the discomforts to any one else in your life, but don’t put your infertile friend in the position of comforting you.

Your infertile friend would give anything to experience the discomforts you are enduring because those discomforts come from a baby growing inside of you. When I heard a pregnant woman complain about morning sickness, I would think, “I’d gladly throw up for nine straight months if it meant I could have a baby.” When a pregnant woman would complain about her weight gain, I would think, “I would cut off my arm if I could be in your shoes.”

I managed to go to baby showers and hospitals to welcome my friends’ new babies, but it was hard. Without exception, it was hard. Stay sensitive to your infertile friend’s emotions, and give her the leeway that she needs to be happy for you while she cries for herself. If she can’t bring herself to hold your new baby, give her time. She isn’t rejecting you or your new baby; she is just trying to work her way through her pain to show sincere joy for you. The fact that she is willing to endure such pain in order to celebrate your new baby with you speaks volumes about how much your friendship means to her.

Don’t Treat Them Like They Are Ignorant

For some reason, some people seem to think that infertility causes a person to become unrealistic about the responsibilities of parenthood. I don’t follow the logic, but several people told me that I wouldn’t ache for a baby so much if I appreciated how much responsibility was involved in parenting.

Let’s face it-no one can fully appreciate the responsibilities involved in parenting until they are, themselves, parents. That is true whether you successfully conceived after one month or after 10 years. The length of time you spend waiting for that baby does not factor in to your appreciation of responsibility. If anything, people who have been trying to become pregnant longer have had more time to think about those responsibilities. They have also probably been around lots of babies as their friends started their families.

Perhaps part of what fuels this perception is that infertile couples have a longer time to “dream” about what being a parent will be like. Like every other couple, we have our fantasies-my child will sleep through the night, would never have a tantrum in public, and will always eat his vegetables. Let us have our fantasies. Those fantasies are some of the few parent-to-be perks that we have-let us have them. You can give us your knowing looks when we discover the truth later.

Don’t Gossip About Your Friend’s Condition

Infertility treatments are very private and embarrassing, which is why many couples choose to undergo these treatments in secret. Men especially are very sensitive to letting people know about infertility testing, such as sperm counts. Gossiping about infertility is not usually done in a malicious manner. The gossipers are usually well-meaning people who are only trying to find out more about infertility so they can help their loved ones.

Regardless of why you are sharing this information with someone else, it hurts and embarrasses your friend to find out that Madge the bank teller knows what your husband’s sperm count is and when your next period is expected. Infertility is something that should be kept as private as your friend wants to keep it. Respect your friend’s privacy, and don’t share any information that your friend hasn’t authorized.

Don’t Push Adoption (Yet)

Adoption is a wonderful way for infertile people to become parents. (As an adoptive parent, I can fully vouch for this!!) However, the couple needs to work through many issues before they will be ready to make an adoption decision. Before they can make the decision to love a “stranger’s baby,” they must first grieve the loss of that baby with Daddy’s eyes and Mommy’s nose.

Adoption social workers recognize the importance of the grieving process. When my husband and I went for our initial adoption interview, we expected the first question to be, “Why do you want to adopt a baby?” Instead, the question was, “Have you grieved the loss of your biological child yet?” Our social worker emphasized how important it is to shut one door before you open another.

You do, indeed, need to grieve this loss before you are ready to start the adoption process. The adoption process is very long and expensive, and it is not an easy road. So, the couple needs to be very sure that they can let go of the hope of a biological child and that they can love an adopted baby. This takes time, and some couples are never able to reach this point. If your friend cannot love a baby that isn’t her “own,” then adoption isn’t the right decision for her, and it is certainly not what is best for the baby.

Mentioning adoption in passing can be a comfort to some couples. (The only words that ever offered me comfort were from my sister, who said, “Whether through pregnancy or adoption, you will be a mother one day.”) However, “pushing” the issue can frustrate your friend. So, mention the idea in passing if it seems appropriate, and then drop it. When your friend is ready to talk about adoption, she will raise the issue herself.

So, what can you say to your infertile friends? Unless you say “I am giving you this baby,” there is nothing you can say that will erase their pain. So, take that pressure off of yourself. It isn’t your job to erase their pain, but there is a lot you can do to lesson the load. Here are a few ideas.

Let Them Know That You Care

The best thing you can do is let your infertile friends know that you care. Send them cards. Let them cry on your shoulder. If they are religious, let them know you are praying for them. Offer the same support you would offer a friend who has lost a loved one. Just knowing they can count on you to be there for them lightens the load and lets them know that they aren’t going through this alone.

Remember Them on Mother’s Day

With all of the activity on Mother’s Day, people tend to forget about women who cannot become mothers. Mother’s Day is an incredibly painful time for infertile women. You cannot get away from it-There are ads on the TV, posters at the stores, church sermons devoted to celebrating motherhood, and all of the plans for celebrating with your own mother and mother-in-law.

Mother’s Day is an important celebration and one that I relish now that I am a mother. However, it was very painful while I was waiting for my baby. Remember your infertile friends on Mother’s Day, and send them a card to let them know you are thinking of them. They will appreciate knowing that you haven’t “forgotten” them.

Support Their Decision to Stop Treatments

No couple can endure infertility treatments forever. At some point, they will stop. This is an agonizing decision to make, and it involves even more grief. Even if the couple chooses to adopt a baby, they must still first grieve the loss of that baby who would have had mommy’s nose and daddy’s eyes.

Once the couple has made the decision to stop treatments, support their decision. Don’t encourage them to try again, and don’t discourage them from adopting, if that is their choice. Once the couple has reached resolution (whether to live without children, adopt a child, or become foster parents), they can finally put that chapter of their lives behind them. Don’t try to open that chapter again

Monday, April 19, 2010

FU-OPK

OPK today was lighter than yesterday *sigh* 2 whole years of not ovulating completely sucks! I'm temping and I'll keep testing, but I just have a bad feeling Clomid won't work for me, I mean we're already on 150mg. I hope the new RE will be able to get me to O without breaking the bank. I'm terrified of injectables...more-so the price tag then the constant daily stabbing. I had a mini melt down last night laying in bed and just burst into tears in the middle of the night worried about how we are going to afford all of the medication. *cries* It's just so expensive. I guess we'll just wait and see what the RE says as soon as my referal gets approved. I hate infertility.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

OPK update

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Hmmmm....I can't tell if it's gotten any darker from yesterday, The more I stare at it the more my eyes blur.

Maybe getting closer

I feel like one day I'll have hope and the next I won't and the next I'll have hope again... I think this is the darkest my OPK has gotten so far this cycle, so I still may not be out yet. It's not positive yet, but I'm hoping it goes fully positive in the next couple days. I really need to O. I mean that's all that's holding me back from having a baby...

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Please send some O dust my way!

Please God just let me ovulate.

Friday, April 16, 2010

CD 23

and still not a positive OPK in sight. I think the 150mg of Clomid is going to be a bust....I really hope I can get in with Dr Wizard. It scares me that even Clomid doesn't work for me, that means our next step would be injectables *sigh* Maybe he can try me on Clomid and monitor me closely by u/s and then do an HCG trigger...we'll see what he says.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

If you haven't seen it

then you HAVE to watch The Great Sperm Race, it's amazing!

Here's part 1...there's 6 parts on youtube, it's really amazing to see how so much goes against you having a baby even when you're perfectly healthy and fertile.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gAnMymnJiLM

It's really cool though, they used people as sperm and places as the vagina, cervix, uterus and fallopian tubes so you can really see the crazy journey sperm have to take to get to the egg blown up to human size.

I learned a few things in the video too, random facts like:

*A man produces about 1,000 sperm with every heartbeat.

*The "entryway" into the fallopian tube is only about 3 sperm-head wide

*Out of the millions and millions of sperm that get ejaculated only a couple make it alive to the egg!!!

It's a good watch!

Primary Appointment

I went in to see my primary this morning to get my new referral and I think my Dr was just as upset as I was to have to go through all of that again...at least he's on my side lol. I'm really hoping I can get in with "Dr Wizard" because from what I'm hearing from lots of people, he's amazing! He even wrote that book "What to Do When You Can't Get Pregnant"!! I know that book! I just hope I can get in with him and he's my magic ticket!! *prays*

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Words to keep you going.

"the greater the fight, the greater the victory"

Choosing the "chosen one"

Sooooo is it bad that I want to pick my RE by his name..... Dr Daniel Potter.....*giggles* totally reminds me of Harry Potter/Daniel Radcliffe and since it reminds me of that it makes me think he'll be like magic or something. He's "my chosen one"

He actually has the BEST stats I have found and won tons of awards and had numerous publications...I think I'll give him a try....

....and secretly call him my magical wizard behind his back!

Monday, April 12, 2010

CD 19

CD 19 and my temps have finally dropped back to a normal range. http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/24ff9a

I had been sick right before I started temping this cycle, so I'm pretty sure that is what caused the higher than normal temps. I'm still getting negative OPKs, but I'm not giving up hope yet for this cycle. I think if I do O, then it might be soon, my OPKs have been getting slightly darker, and last night I actually had some EWCM.

I stopped by my primary today to get my new referral and since I want to try someone new, then I have to make an appointment with my primary, or else he could just write it up today for the same girl I have been seeing, so I made an appointment for thursday morning to get my new referral. Hopefully that will go through fast and we'll be able to get in with someone good.

I can't believe we're getting so close to our 2 year mark.

Friday, April 9, 2010

Nope, no O

Well no O for me yet according to my chart that dropped to 98.4 this morning. That's okay, I didn't really think I had O'd yet. For someone who hasn't O'd in I don't know how many years, I don't think I'll ever believe that I am actually Oing or did until there is a baby coming out of my nether regions.

And I know those OPKs were not positive that I posted yesterday, I was just pointing out that it had gotten darker from the day before that.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Now THIS

First my temps look like they spiked for O...now today my OPK got darker...I think I give up.

The top test was yesterday at 2pm, bottom test today at 2pm...I tested again today at 5pm and 8pm both way lighter so I know I didn't miss a surge...

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UUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGG!!!

Remember all the months of hassle that I had to go through to get an infertility referral? Well our insurance thru mikes work changed and now I have to go through it all over again!! I am sooo beyond upset/sad. It would be one thing if it was easy to do, but all these people at my primary just don't know what the heck they're doing and ALWAYS mess up! So My clomid check had to get canceled and I shouldn't even do my projesterone draw, but I think I'm going to anyways. OVER EVERYTHING!

To O or not to O...

Well, I'm not sure, but I might have Oed on CD 13 here's my chart... http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/24ff9a

If my temp stays up tomorrow I'm lik 99%sure I'll get crosshairs on CD13. And if that's the case, then apparently OPKs don't work for me because I have been testing 3...yes...3 times a day and they have all been negative.

If it was/is O then I hope we caught it, we BD on CD8, 10, 12, 14...and today I'm CD15 so hopefully our timing was okay. I think we're still going to continue to test and BD just in case that wasn't Oand it's just my body freaking out... I guess we'll see how tomorrows temp is. Keep your fingers crossed!

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Grow!

My ovaries are feeling nice and "full" with lots of pinching, throbbing, heavy-feeling, dull-aching.....and I LOVE it! I'm sure it means something fun is going on! Any time I feel anything happening in there I get sooo happy, just because I think wow, right at this very moment a follicle may be growing away containing the egg that could one day be our baby. *love*

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Easter Eggs and Ovaries

Happy Easter blog buddies!

I hope everyone had an amazing day! I spent my day with the people I hold closest to my heart, my family. I love my family so much, they really are amazing.

One of my cousins is preggo with her first, and while she was laying on the couch, I was able to feel him kicking away in her cute belly.................which of course made my uterus skip a beat. lol Man, that must feel amazing to actually feel a new life inside you. I am so so excited for her, she will be an amazing mother and I can't wait to meet her little man. *swoon*

CD11 today, and I'm having lots of pains in my ovaries...mainly the left one. Like really sharp pinching that has been coming in waves all day. I really hope there's a little follie holding a little egg growing away in there. Though I'm not stressing about it which is actually nice, just kinda going with it. You do what you can and whatever comes will come. If this is it, then great...but if it's not then that's the way it's supposed to be. God won't steer me wrong!

I starting temping again 3 days ago, but my temps are really high this cycle, but the girls on the MBs were saying it could be just my temp still coming down from the fever I had this week. Here's a link to my chart so you can check it out..http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/24ff9a
98.5 for yesterday and the day before and today's temp way 98.8! If my temp stays up like this, does anyone know if it would make it harder for implantation or ovulation or anything like that?

Oh well. It's still pretty early in my cycle. We'll see how it all plays out!

I hope you all had a great day with your family and loved ones!

Friday, April 2, 2010

Wise Words

"All the adversity I've had in my life, all my troubles and obstacles, have strengthened me... You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you." ~Walt Disney