Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Bye Bye Clomid CD7

So I've been sitting here for the past 2 days with a temperature of 103. Just lovely. It's down to about 100 right now, so I'm feeling a bit better. It was strange how fast it came on and I really hope that it leaves just as quickly. I am glad that I got it now and not closer to O time.

I took my last dosage of Clomid just a few minutes ago and I hope that's the last time I have to take it for a long time! I have a feeling it's going to work this just a feeling I will actually ovulate. Ovulation would be divine! All day today I have had pinching in both ovaries so I hope I've got a couple follies growing away! We're not doing a follicle check this cycle, just going to temp and OPK it up.

I do think that I had a couple small cysts burst yesterday. It felt just like the last big one that burst that put us on a 2 month time out, but this time it didn't feel anywhere as bad so I'm not very concerned about it.

So now we test and temp and wait till we see O!

I'm not very stressed or obsessed this cycle like any of the others which I think will only do us good. Trying to stay calm and relaxed..........we'll see how long that lasts.

Peace, love and babydust!

Monday, March 29, 2010

Hello Crazy!

Man, the first cycle of Clomid I took way back when (50mg) I had some side effects, but not too bad. Last cycle I took a few months ago (100mg) I had like NO side effects whatsoever. This cycle, I'm only on day 3 of 150mg, and wow, I am a crazy person. I have cried over about 298430 reasons today. LOL it's actually kinda funny, I've had little hot flashes, but nothing too bad so far. I'm not complaining, just kinda laughing about it, because it comes in waves and honestly it's kinda funny how one second I'll be laughing and then it turns into crying and pissy words coming out of my mouth. DH just holds me, becasue he knows it's not really me. Hopefully that means it's really going to work this cycle and I'm going to pop out a few massive eggs! ;)

Friday, March 26, 2010

Here's the game plan

So I think the plan for this cycle is:

Prenatals every day
Metformin every day
Clomid cds3-7
No caffeine
Start OPKs CD10
Start BDing cd 10 and every other day, up till a week after O
Listen to my fertility meditation CD every night this cycle (thanks to my fabulous friend Jen for giving this to me) It actually is soooo calming!
Progesterone blood draw CD21
Clomid check w/ Dr CD 26

Hopefully that should do it!

What are your game plans this cycle?

Thursday, March 25, 2010

She's here!

AF arrived bright and early this morning, so I am officially on CD 1. Bye Bye 71 day cycle, thank you provera, hellooooooo 150 mg of Clomid!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

21 months

21 months TTC today. Not feelin' too bad! 21 is kinda a cool number...

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Just noting this for reference

I'm doing some searching online just to see what you should and shouldn't do in your follicular phase while on clomid to increase your chances of ovulating, and since we're already at 150mg I don't want to have to go past this, so I'm just copying and pasting away things I find.

supplements with phyoestrogens are not allowed

This is correct. They will actually cancel out the effects of Clomid so you can't take them together. This does include soy isoflavones as well as other soy products. If you take soy isofalavones one month you need to try and avoid soy the rest of the month. Two to three ounces of tofu or a glass of soy milk [daily] is enough to add 40 to 60 mg of isoflavones to your diet so you really need to stay away from soy. Here is a list of foods that contain phytoestrogens but I don't know how much. Soy is the biggest thing to worry about.
Isoflavones: Soy beans, tempeh, tofu, soy milk. Soy sauce is not a significant source ofisoflavones and is high in sodium.
Flavanols: Onions, lettuce, tomatoes, red wine, green tea
Flavones: Apples, green tea
Flavanones: Citrus peels
Lignans: Flaxseed or flax flour, lentils, small amounts in garlic, squash, asparagus

Here are a few supplements that have phytoestrogen in them:
Red clover, a source of isoflavones
Dong quai or angelica, which contains coumarin, an anti-coagulating agent
Flaxseed, source of lignans. I would probably stay away from black cohosh as well.


Here are more herbs you can't take with soy or Clomid...

Agave root, black cohosh root, black currant, black haw, chasteberries, cramp bark, dong quai root, devil's club root, false unicorn root, ginseng root, groundsel herb, licorice, liferoot herb, motherwort herb, peony root, raspberry leaves, rose family plants (most parts), sage leaves, sarsaparilla root, saw palmetto berried, wild yam root, yarrow blossoms.


I don't know how true this all is, but I'm willing to try anything.

More insurance stuff

Mike and I have a new insurance through his work so I decided to call and see what kind of infertility coverage is on there, and just like our other one they pay 50% of copays and all that good stuff up to IUIs. IUIs and IVFs aren't covered, but I didn't think they would be. I asked him about injectables, and he said they should also be 50% covered, but I don't know I'm not holding my breath that they really are. I just have a feeling that they are not, like the way he said it was more of a "I don't see why not" and not a "yes they are"...why can't insurance be easy!?

Oh well it doesn't matter, I'm going to ovulate and get pregnant this cycle anyways *wink-wink*

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Just wanted to update. I have my last Provera pill left to take tomorrow, and hopefully should start AF a few says after that. She should be here anytime between this Thursday - next Monday! Then I'll start my 150mg Clomid CDs 3-7! Yipee! Cmon body! Let's ovulate!!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Giveaway on Little Pink Dollhouse

I'm having a giveaway over on my crafting blog!


Were watching Leno and he has all these little kid inventors on and this cute little girl was telling a joke and I glanced over at Mike and the whole time he's watching, he's just got this super sweet smile on his face....I pray one day I can give him that. :)

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

You know what I just realized?

AF will be here on March 25........that means if I got pregnant this cycle, my due date would be Christmas day! I'm not gonna lie, that's kinda cool.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Ohhh yeeeeaahhhh


Granted, I may not use everything in this stash this cycle, but I've got a nice little TTC stash going on here!

Friday, March 12, 2010

Great day!!

My Dr's nurse FINALLY called this morning and I'm all clear to come off my TTC break!! She said all the fluids are gone from the burst cysts, and my ovaries don't have any major cysts! HOORAY! So she's faxing my pharmacy prescriptions for 150mg Clomid, Provera, and she's refilling my Metformin! So excited to be back in the game. I'm praying the 150mg of clomid does the trick and gets me to ovulate! I haven't felt this happy in a while lol.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Come on already!

I STILL haven't heard back from my Dr yet about moving on to the 150mg of Clomid! I'm honestly starting to get really frustrated! It's been 2 1/2 weeks since my follow up u/s! Everytime I call they say "Oh radiology has been really backed up, try calling back on such and such a day!" I'm going to try and call tomorrow and really press the issue, I'm so over it. I think I'm going to ask my Dr to refer me to an RE.

Monday, March 8, 2010


So I'm trying to get prepared for my (hopefully) first 150mg cycle, and I was buying OPKs and HPTs from my favorite internet cheapie site and I think once upon a time I was going to buy some, put some in my cart, and then didn't end up buying them, and didn't fully review my checkout cart this time, and now I have 25 HPTs & 125 OPKs headed my way!!! LOL Oh man! Just what a POAS addict needs. Oh well, I'll be fully prepared then! lol I think I'm also going to get some pre-seed for this cycle too in hopes that the 150mg gets me to ovulate. I sooo hope this cycle brings our miracle baby.

I was obsessing for a while, and really got down and depressed about the whole TTC thing. I didn't want to go to the forums anymore, or talk to anyone else TTC, or talk to any of my pregnant friends (sad I know). I think I was at my lowest point. I had to resign from being a TTC forum guide, just because I felt as if everytime I went in there, I couldn't breathe.

I think I've shed more tears in the past few months than ever in my life.

I was blank...

I was dark...

My heart didn't feel shattered or broken anymore, but like it was completely gone.

I've tried to get through it, but it consumed every part of my being.

I was talking to my good friend "L" the other day as I was doing her hair, and she also struggles with infertility, and she brought something up that changed my life. She said that she too had been feeling completely consumed by everything and finally, completely just gave it to God.

So I went home...and I prayed.


I told God I understood He has a plan for my life. I told Him I love Him and that whatever He was to do with my life, then so be it and I will go along with anything He wants for me....but to at least if nothing else...grant me peace.

And you know what? This simple prayer... above all the other long winded, drawn out, crying, screaming, sad prayers...........God heard.

And it was immediate.

I will still do what I can to try to get pregnant, but lately... heart has been back inside my body
...all of it's little pieces are back together
...and it actually beats.

He heard me! And I have a strange renewed sense of faith in Him! I know he's working miracles up there, and I just KNOW with all of my put back together heart that one day, someday, we will be parents somehow.

I do think that all of this has been such a learning experiance for me. God has been training me to become a better parent. Even though I'm not a mother in my arms or womb...I'm a mother in my heart. I know I will never take my children for granted, and I will always be in awe of this miracle that will oneday happen in our lives...and God gave me the gift to fully understand what a miracle that will be!

So tonight I sing all praises to Father, teaching me to be a Mother.

PS. I know my friend "L" reads this, and I just wanted to thank her for opening my eyes back up to our Lord...and helping me regain peace in my life. It means more to me than you'll ever know! xoxo

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Sooo I suck and I didn't drink any parsley tea yesterday lol. I just really really hope my Dr calls today with some good news about my ultrasound. I think If I don't hear from her today I'll try her tomorrow. If she still doesn't have any results, I'm half tempted to just ask for a referral to the RE that's down the hall from her, because It's sooo hard to do anything through my Dr. She's a great Dr, it's just that it's hard to get in with her, and hard to get results somewhat soon.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Parsley Tea

I'm trying Parsley Tea to bring on AF. I don't know if it will work as I'm on CD 40 something, but it's worth a shot! I just had my first glass and it wasnt so bad! If it does actually work, and I still haven't heard back from my Dr, I'm going to try a cycle of Soy, which is like natures Clomid. Alot of girls in our forum have tried it, and it has worked for them, so what the heck!

Monday, March 1, 2010

still always

I called again today to see if my Dr had gotten my ultrasound back yet, and the girl I talked to said lately it's been taking forever to get them back in, and sometimes will take up to 2 weeks! She said to try and call back thursday or friday *hmph*